Hey, my name is Luke. I’m a follower of Jesus. I grew up in church and it seems like I’ve just always known Him and served Him. Even growing up knowing Jesus I’ve experienced the temptation of sin. Since I was about 12 years old I have battled with homosexuality. I have questioned God so much and asked why He would let me go through this or feel this way if it’s not His will and it’s not the way He’s intended for us to live.
As the years have gone I have drifted further and further from God. I began to chase after what I wanted, I was “following my heart”. I ran from God, ran from my calling, ran from my family, friends, and thrusted myself into the world. I had to hit rock bottom to realize how much I need Jesus. I found myself in the middle of a deep anxiety and panic mode, which I knew was the conviction of God. I prayed and sought Jesus for forgiveness and swore to never leave again. But, I did anyways.
I am constantly failing Him and there’s nothing I could ever do to deserve the grace and love He has shown me. I’ve run, turned from, and even lied to the Lord so many times. He’s never forsaken me even in all my back and forth. I still fight daily and I know that there are so many people who believe that there’s no way God would want you to deny your heart and your emotions like that, but that’s honestly what Christianity is all about. It’s about denying yourself to accept more of Jesus.
Luke 9:23 says, “If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.” 2 Corinthians 5:15 says, “And that he died for all, that they which live should not henceforth live unto themselves, but unto him which died for them, and rose again.” Now, despite my struggles, I am sure of who I am in Christ and have a beautiful girlfriend to share my life with. God has saved me, just as He will do for you.
Hey, I'm Summer Hobby. I'm the definition of an introvert, but I haven’t always been this way. I was raised in church with my amazing family. When I was younger, I was your average playful kid- talkative and loud. By 13, I started to develop anxiety- being afraid of everything. We moved and I had to switch schools. My mom had cancer and we had to get everything taken care of before she had to get surgery- I was so afraid I might lose my mom. The fear started to consume me. My oldest brother was so consumed by drugs he started losing his mind. When I was 14, I lost my sister- my best friend and confidant. I started to feel so alone and insecure again; I wondered what the purpose was. I felt so alone and thought that I did not matter to anyone so why be alive. I thought about hurting and even killing myself. I would not tell anyone, my family did not need my drama on top of it all. So, I went on I would smile throughout the day, but I would lock myself in my room whenever I got the chance. Sometimes I would just lay awake and cry at night. I was in the darkest place of my life and no one knew. It took me a long time to realize but I was never alone. God was with me the whole time. He kept me from killing myself. He healed my mother of cancer. He has sent me multiple people throughout these last couple of years every time I started to feel alone to remind me, I am not, and that God has a purpose for my life. Most recently my brother admitted he needed help and is now in a faith-based rehab getting help. I know depression and anxiety is not something easy to deal with, but It does not define who you are. You have to just take it a day at a time and just trust in God. “Trust in the lord with all thine heart and lean not unto thine own understanding “Proverbs 3:5. I am a daughter, a sister, an aunt, a girlfriend, a Sunday school teacher and most importantly a child of God. Your battle doesn’t define you. Give it to God.
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